Lights of My Life

Hope your Christmas is happy and that you have love all year long.

Falling

Funny, I have been in this same PICU room, so many times now. The same nice nurses, the same cheerful fish decor, and the same el trains passing over the highway. It seems like it is always snowing, and late at night I watch the empty trains passing back and forth, and it seems like this is my real life, and the other well lit happy life where my son is running and playing is just pretend, silly me pretending that one bump, one fall can't change our lives forever, or at least send us back here for awhile. I catch myself holding still, very still, trying to hide from monsters, God I know they are out there so I have to work so much harder to pretend.

It is getting light and the medical students are coming in to admire my beautiful boy, who looks so good it is easy to forget, to pretend that he is normal and will always be okay. I wonder if any of them catch the significance of his name, Eden. One misstep and happy times are gone.

They say we can go and we are off as quick as possible, running, paying the man at the parking deck to let us go, twenty dollars to go back to our happy place, our happy pretend place. We will visit again, soon I am sure, and while I am there I will look out the window and contemplate how precarious it all is, and go home and savor sunshine and kisses all the more.

My Hamster Took Over My Room

My Hamster Took Over My Room

By Sage and Rebecca Hill

My hamster took over my room.

There is toilet paper up to the ceiling
Shavings and sunflower seeds all over the floor

His giant water bottle gets in the way
I have no place to sleep
My mom says “what a mess!”

My baby brother thinks its fun
Late at night I hear disco music and lights
I can hear them dancing.
Flashing lights under the door

I just want my room back
I knock on the door
My hamster opens it a little
And closes it quick

It sounds like fun in there
My hamster took over my room.